AnotHer NiTe, AnoTher dReaM(buT iS alWayS yoU)
Another nite... U were there wanting more from me, but what I'm supposed to do? pretending that everything is fine, It was weird feeling your arms around me, I was dying a couple days before to have them, but now I don't know you anymore!!!! U were drunk, telling me is the only thing that U can do to avoid the problems, seeing you all fucked up it hurts like hell. U keep blaming me for the past, like I said "If U wanna live your life like that, go ahead I refuse to keep doing this", Then just let me go, stop dragging me to your hole... set me free, if that means forgetting about me; my number, my email, my fb, everything, it doesn't really matter everything is dying inside, Stay away from me, I'm getting sick of this game, one day u need me and wanna be with me and the next day I'm the worse person in the world! This is becoming crazy and a destructive relationship, even we aren't together.
Right now I dunno what to think about you, I've seeing so many faces of you... and is no one to buy... for how long are you going to punish me?, U really love me? how can I trust in ur actions? Why u don't wanna face the truth?, what is going on with you? Why u act in some way on front of the people when I'm not there and then U change completly when I'm there? U've been faking ur love?, why you doing this to me?
Who do you think you are to smash things in my face even u provoked a lot of 'em? give me a reason to keep holding on to this?...
My Sister gave me two options to fix this situation:
1.- Ask P, if wants to keep in touch is cool, but no feelings involved, is not fair for both talking about 'em. Be clear and respectful.
2.- Ask P to leave you alone for ever... it need to erase you completly, U need to do the same.
Basically those are the more reasonble options, I dunno wich one I can handle better. I'm a fucking mess rite now.... I can't be with you, but I can't be without you!
Si no puedo estar contigo
ya no puedo estar sin ti
cada vez se hace mas duro el ser feliz
Y me sigue rodeando
la sombra de ti
Y sigue rodeando por ahi
todas las palabras que dijimos
y los besos que nos dimos
como siempre hoy estoy pensando en ti
Sombra de ti By Shakira