bItTeR EnD

How I'd ended like this,I'm becoming so "bitter", can find the meaning of adventure anymore, maybe is for my emotional stats. I used to take the risk to go in adventures (can be club, trips) but not anymore, like yesterday kinda wanted to go out, I was excited about it. Suddenly everything went down!!! Rigo says "he is getting older", I say "I'm getting bitter" so two opinion taking us to the same direction; where's the adventured @? We don't know.
Analyzing myself, realizing the position am I now is far away from yesterday, bc I'm not who I used to be. I'm writing more and expressing myself more lately, maybe is the only way that I will redeem myself for everything I've done and P did to me. There's so many feeling that I'm trying to get back, the illusion of tomorrow, the sparkle when something is magical, how to burst my bubble but keeping the strange world the one that I belong mixed with the real world. No matter how hard the stars are trying to shine on me, is not time for me, like I said before I'm in "stand by mode". Most of my time I'd spend is alone in my room, just the computer, Charmed and Bayonetta keeping company.
What can I do? How long this gonna last? I'll be able to take another path? I'm blind in my future? Is something left for me?
Wow so many question... answer that gonna take me a while to figured 'em out.


I feel like I'm
A million miles away
From myself
More and more these days
I've been down
So many open roads
But they never lead me home
And now i just don't know
Who i really am
How it's gonna be
Is there something that I can't see
I wanna understand


Maybe I will never be
Who I was before
Maybe I don't know me anymore
Maybe who I am today
Ain't so far from yesterday
Can I find a way to be
Every part of me


So I'll try
Try to sort things out
And find myself
Get my feet back on the ground
It'll take time
But I know I'll be alright
Cuz nothing much has changed
On the inside
It's hard to figure out
How it's gonna be
Cuz I don't really know now
I wanna understand


Chorus

I don't wanna wait too long
To find out where I'm meant to belong
I've always wanted to be where I am today
But I never thought I'd feel this way

Every part of me by Miley Cyrus