AfteR 3 wEeKs


After 3 weeks I'd found you in the club, u were wearing that horrible boots, that hideous tee too. Ur hair is darker.
I wasn't sure to going out but I'd decided to take the risk, leaving the "bitter" that became in my house, so was around 1:15 am when I saw you walking downstairs, my heart start to beat faster, you got lost in the crowd... u disappear...Minutes passed thru my life and one more time u are there steering @ me, my eyes were in yours but this fairy tale is over. My first reaction was run to you, hold you, kiss you... then sadness, then anger, then two thousand feelings were spinning around inside my heart and my mind. Can control them, doing my best but on the dance floor I was looking for you.... u aren't there... my hopes are leaving my soul. Dancing, pretending that I didn't see you. The moment to left the club got to me. Picking up my blue jacket having the desire to run away from you...surprise, surprise u were outside talking to some "strangers" (I want it to think that) passing right next to you, I'd hear you saying something about me, after that second I'd start to walk faster 'till I'm running. I was so angry with myself, angry with you... playing these four walls, kinda stooping on front of you, but like I knew it you don't even looked at me, just wanted to fly with my car, going away. I'm so desperate know, I'm sweating now, moving slow. Driving so fast(something inside my head told me "you have to calm down this is no you")the stoplight is there. Taking my phone dialing Maria's number, bc I needed someone to calm down this madness, luckily she did helped me out.. saying all my feelings and making the mistake to send you a email saying:
Can you tell me my heart it needs stop loving you.... or just take my feelings away... When I saw you just wanted to hold you and kiss you, I know is stupid keeping like this but dunno what to do. I know u don't gonna answer this but at least i say this to the rite person.
I'm feeling like shit now, the pills are hitting me, so I will try to get some rest, hoping when I wake up my day gets better and less painful.

Entre el cielo y suelo hay algo
con tendencia a quedarse calvo
de tanto recordar
y ese algo que soy yo mismo
es un cuadro de bifrontismo que
solo da una faz
la cara vista es un anuncio de Signal
la cara oculta es la resulta
de mi idea genial de echarte
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me cuesta tanto
olvidar quince mil encantos
es mucha sensatez
y no se si sere sensato
lo que se es que me cuesta un rato
hacer cosas sin querer
y aunque fui yo quien decidio que ya no mas
y no me canse de jurarte que no habra
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