I'M noT coUntInG
I dont will count the days anymore, whatever is done is done......
27.2.10
It Don'T maTtEr
Taking one step at the time
watching the hours going by
breathing the thick air around
suddenly I seen myself in the dark
once again is because you pulling me back
something echoes your words
You don't trust in me
but how I can trust in you?
The next step maybe is wait
watching you running side to side
tapping my feelings into your heart
for how long I have to be here?
casting a spell perhaps
walking in circles for quite some time
catching the dreams in the stairs
whether is wrong or right
how can I tell you
how much you mean for me
If you don't wanna hear
After a while
I will need to step ahead
taking a jump between limbo and paradise
what's the name of that place?
you said to me one day
I will love you no matter what
can you say it now
Getting closer to the exit
so much hours I've been wishing
the exact moment when you will find me
the picture in my head seems so different
it don't matter now
because you and I
we are touching the sky.
Your arms will be around
my soul has been missing you
look at me and say
we gonna be together
'till the end of time
One last step to take
erasing memories from ourselves
maybe we can trust in this feeling
with no fear...
it don't matter how long it takes
but seems this fairy tale it has a happy end.
A song inspired by You...
Taking one step at the time
watching the hours going by
breathing the thick air around
suddenly I seen myself in the dark
once again is because you pulling me back
something echoes your words
You don't trust in me
but how I can trust in you?
The next step maybe is wait
watching you running side to side
tapping my feelings into your heart
for how long I have to be here?
casting a spell perhaps
walking in circles for quite some time
catching the dreams in the stairs
whether is wrong or right
how can I tell you
how much you mean for me
If you don't wanna hear
After a while
I will need to step ahead
taking a jump between limbo and paradise
what's the name of that place?
you said to me one day
I will love you no matter what
can you say it now
Getting closer to the exit
so much hours I've been wishing
the exact moment when you will find me
the picture in my head seems so different
it don't matter now
because you and I
we are touching the sky.
Your arms will be around
my soul has been missing you
look at me and say
we gonna be together
'till the end of time
One last step to take
erasing memories from ourselves
maybe we can trust in this feeling
with no fear...
it don't matter how long it takes
but seems this fairy tale it has a happy end.
A song inspired by You...
BaCk AgIan wHeRe AlL bEgUn
I'm again in these four walls but it doesn't feel like dying, my madness is no t mad like I'd thought it would be. I told people what happen between U and I, they were surprised for my reaction, being so calm and cool with ur decision.
Yesterday I wanted to hang out with Alex, but sometimes his comments are so inappropriate, driving me nuts. Alsi his gf broke up with him, he's down like every other day, honestly I'm a lil down too so if we do the math: his pain + mine = depression and disaster. Today I will continue with my history(Darkest Dream) hopefully I will write at least 2 more chapters.
So everything falls into place... Is weird how my heart and mind are synchronized this time, both are telling me to let go and keep going, that's what I call "The perfect song".
Anyway I will love you but I dont need you.
I'm again in these four walls but it doesn't feel like dying, my madness is no t mad like I'd thought it would be. I told people what happen between U and I, they were surprised for my reaction, being so calm and cool with ur decision.
Yesterday I wanted to hang out with Alex, but sometimes his comments are so inappropriate, driving me nuts. Alsi his gf broke up with him, he's down like every other day, honestly I'm a lil down too so if we do the math: his pain + mine = depression and disaster. Today I will continue with my history(Darkest Dream) hopefully I will write at least 2 more chapters.
So everything falls into place... Is weird how my heart and mind are synchronized this time, both are telling me to let go and keep going, that's what I call "The perfect song".
Anyway I will love you but I dont need you.
26.2.10
KnOwinG... tAkinG tHe riSk
Part of me it knew we gonna end like this again, this time a lil bit different, I'm not crying, bc my heart was prepare for this, since the first day we've back together I'd felt u were hiding something, also something was pulling you back... avoiding the "we are together again" conversation. At least it took you less than 2 weeks to tell me truth about what u feeling. I'm not mad, actually I don't have any feelings rite now but my love for you.
I bet my wings for your heart, but we don't trust each other @ all. U don't believe in my word, I don't believe in ur actions. So is not much what we can do.
U were crying and crying, bc u need to find ur inner peace, u are so messed up at the moment, leave the fears on the side, take the risk(if you want) to find real love, maybe with me, with someone else, but as long u are happy I'll be happy for you.
You said U are a disappointment, I said NO U AREN'T, then u said wait a couple days and U'll see. Well I'm not disappoint because I knew this gonna happen, the fairy tale has an end, for you and I; is being apart. You are young, u don't wanna face the problems one by one, everything spin around in your crazy head, like I told you: U need to separate everything and solve every problem separately. But I need to keep going without you, I'm not a waiter, I don't want another relationship, rite now I need to be alone again, but I will not put myself in the bucket again, it took me a month to get out. Already learn how to live my life without you.
I'd promise you I will give you time, take all that u need, that's what u need, but time is the thing I don't have(U know why). No emails, no text, no phone calls, I will do that bc I love you, that never gonna change, no matter where I'm. U'd make me believe in love again, but U have to grow up and deal with ur demons, I can't be with you being like this, just wondering every day.
I took the risk to be with you, I don't regret it but I wish I didn't.... but is late now the hours are passing by telling me to run... that's my demon rite now
If you ask me, I will say it
You make me smile, it's contagious
And in your eyes, I can see it
Cause your heart is the greatest
[Chorus :]
I can't be without you
So don't go anywhere
You show me love like no one else
Has done yet
And with the road ahead
This is the beginning
Of this love story
Of this love story
[Verse 2:]
When I'm with you, I am taken
With the feeling that you've been chosen
What a longing, it's the best thing
In a long time I'm not broken
And I can't be without you
So don't go anywhere
You show me love like no one else
Has done yet
And with the road ahead
This is the beginning
Of this love story
Of this love story
Love Story by Nadia Ali
Part of me it knew we gonna end like this again, this time a lil bit different, I'm not crying, bc my heart was prepare for this, since the first day we've back together I'd felt u were hiding something, also something was pulling you back... avoiding the "we are together again" conversation. At least it took you less than 2 weeks to tell me truth about what u feeling. I'm not mad, actually I don't have any feelings rite now but my love for you.
I bet my wings for your heart, but we don't trust each other @ all. U don't believe in my word, I don't believe in ur actions. So is not much what we can do.
U were crying and crying, bc u need to find ur inner peace, u are so messed up at the moment, leave the fears on the side, take the risk(if you want) to find real love, maybe with me, with someone else, but as long u are happy I'll be happy for you.
You said U are a disappointment, I said NO U AREN'T, then u said wait a couple days and U'll see. Well I'm not disappoint because I knew this gonna happen, the fairy tale has an end, for you and I; is being apart. You are young, u don't wanna face the problems one by one, everything spin around in your crazy head, like I told you: U need to separate everything and solve every problem separately. But I need to keep going without you, I'm not a waiter, I don't want another relationship, rite now I need to be alone again, but I will not put myself in the bucket again, it took me a month to get out. Already learn how to live my life without you.
I'd promise you I will give you time, take all that u need, that's what u need, but time is the thing I don't have(U know why). No emails, no text, no phone calls, I will do that bc I love you, that never gonna change, no matter where I'm. U'd make me believe in love again, but U have to grow up and deal with ur demons, I can't be with you being like this, just wondering every day.
I took the risk to be with you, I don't regret it but I wish I didn't.... but is late now the hours are passing by telling me to run... that's my demon rite now
If you ask me, I will say it
You make me smile, it's contagious
And in your eyes, I can see it
Cause your heart is the greatest
[Chorus :]
I can't be without you
So don't go anywhere
You show me love like no one else
Has done yet
And with the road ahead
This is the beginning
Of this love story
Of this love story
[Verse 2:]
When I'm with you, I am taken
With the feeling that you've been chosen
What a longing, it's the best thing
In a long time I'm not broken
And I can't be without you
So don't go anywhere
You show me love like no one else
Has done yet
And with the road ahead
This is the beginning
Of this love story
Of this love story
Love Story by Nadia Ali
17.2.10
sO hAppY, sO sCaRe
Im so happy to be with you again, after the month of hell, finally everything back to place, I hope this time for long... I love you can't deny, otherwise I don't have nothing to lose again.... Is gonna be a hard work for both... we are trying everyday to get better, trusting each other.
Saturday was a great day for me, I was with my family, celebrating Sam's bday...so awesome, my aunt was talking to me again after 3 weeks... so everything was running smooth.
But back to basiscs. A long email was writen for me to you, without any expectations I sent it to you, it took me 2 hours to write it down, was clear, direct, honest, showing the real me, like you said: " The Gyo who wrote that, is the one that I love", then I was reading ur answer, the u called me, my heart was beating so fast,the love ran thru my veins when I'd heard ur voice. U were crying, I was so calm. Then u said: "I'm sorry to let you go, u are the one that I love, can't be without you anymore, this month it has been a hell". Since that moment I knew we can try it again, even I don't believe in second chances, let's not run away this time. I wanna show you how big is my love for you, learning from all the mistake I've made, like I said before: " I can't do anything to change the past, but I'm so able and willing to give you a better present".
After dinner, after the club(was awesome btw), wanted to see you... so that's why I was @ ur door @ 3 am just to kiss you and feel ur sweet touch...
FORWARD>>>>>
Valentine's Day
I was so exited to see you again and celebrate V day, with you, so we had a romantic date(not like I'd plan) but we were together. Movie and dinner was the plan but the Movie was great Percy Jackson and the Olympians, like child enjoying the presentation. U are my sexy beast my fave dark chocolate, my addiction... I love you... so we keep it real.
I see we gonna make it ROCK'S.....
btw with Scare I mean, scare to loose you again but my fears are behind...
I find the map and draw a straight line
Over rivers, farms, and state lines
The distance from 'A' to where you'd be
It's only finger-lengths Jobby that I see
I touch the place where I'd find your face
My finger in creases of distant dark places
I hang my coat up in the first bar
There is no peace that I've found so far
The laughter penetrates my silence
As drunken men find flaws in science
Their words mostly noises
Ghosts with just voices
Your words in my memory
Are like music to me
I'm miles from where you are,
I lay down on the cold ground
I, I pray that something picks me up
And sets me down in your warm arms
After I have travelled so far
We'd set the fire to the third bar
We'd share each other like an island
Until exhausted, close our eyelids
And dreaming, pick up from
The last place we left off
Your soft skin is weeping
A joy you can't keep in
I'm miles from where you are,
I lay down on the cold ground
And I, I pray that something picks me up
and sets me down in your warm arms
I'm miles from where you are,
I lay down on the cold ground
and I, I pray that something picks me up
and sets me down in your warm arms
Set the fire to the third bar by Snow Patrol.
Im so happy to be with you again, after the month of hell, finally everything back to place, I hope this time for long... I love you can't deny, otherwise I don't have nothing to lose again.... Is gonna be a hard work for both... we are trying everyday to get better, trusting each other.
Saturday was a great day for me, I was with my family, celebrating Sam's bday...so awesome, my aunt was talking to me again after 3 weeks... so everything was running smooth.
But back to basiscs. A long email was writen for me to you, without any expectations I sent it to you, it took me 2 hours to write it down, was clear, direct, honest, showing the real me, like you said: " The Gyo who wrote that, is the one that I love", then I was reading ur answer, the u called me, my heart was beating so fast,the love ran thru my veins when I'd heard ur voice. U were crying, I was so calm. Then u said: "I'm sorry to let you go, u are the one that I love, can't be without you anymore, this month it has been a hell". Since that moment I knew we can try it again, even I don't believe in second chances, let's not run away this time. I wanna show you how big is my love for you, learning from all the mistake I've made, like I said before: " I can't do anything to change the past, but I'm so able and willing to give you a better present".
After dinner, after the club(was awesome btw), wanted to see you... so that's why I was @ ur door @ 3 am just to kiss you and feel ur sweet touch...
FORWARD>>>>>
Valentine's Day
I was so exited to see you again and celebrate V day, with you, so we had a romantic date(not like I'd plan) but we were together. Movie and dinner was the plan but the Movie was great Percy Jackson and the Olympians, like child enjoying the presentation. U are my sexy beast my fave dark chocolate, my addiction... I love you... so we keep it real.
I see we gonna make it ROCK'S.....
btw with Scare I mean, scare to loose you again but my fears are behind...
I find the map and draw a straight line
Over rivers, farms, and state lines
The distance from 'A' to where you'd be
It's only finger-lengths Jobby that I see
I touch the place where I'd find your face
My finger in creases of distant dark places
I hang my coat up in the first bar
There is no peace that I've found so far
The laughter penetrates my silence
As drunken men find flaws in science
Their words mostly noises
Ghosts with just voices
Your words in my memory
Are like music to me
I'm miles from where you are,
I lay down on the cold ground
I, I pray that something picks me up
And sets me down in your warm arms
After I have travelled so far
We'd set the fire to the third bar
We'd share each other like an island
Until exhausted, close our eyelids
And dreaming, pick up from
The last place we left off
Your soft skin is weeping
A joy you can't keep in
I'm miles from where you are,
I lay down on the cold ground
And I, I pray that something picks me up
and sets me down in your warm arms
I'm miles from where you are,
I lay down on the cold ground
and I, I pray that something picks me up
and sets me down in your warm arms
Set the fire to the third bar by Snow Patrol.
10.2.10
BaCk in ThE rOad...AgaIn?
Yes, hardly to admit, well not that hard, heehaw. I have a new profile in the sex website, nothing really change these last 4 weeks, same people thinking they're the last coke in the desert. I'm hunting my next victim, still don't believe in love, don't need that is just waste of time, energy, money, feelings so forget it.
I was online for a while but I've got bored after an hour or two, nothing really interesting. Guessing I'm healing now...after Saturday drama, realized that is no reason to stop breathing for you. I love you, but should be crazy to back with you, nothing is gonna change. Last nite you saw me "haunting" then U send me an email, u contradict yourself, u want me but u don't want to spend time with me, U are tired to people talking to you but U still getting online!!! you love me but you want ur freedom, U already have it, what else do you want from me? I'm not that stupid to understand ur game so, I'd set you free... doesn't really matter. I don't want you in a cage, that's how you felt all this time, is so sad, u have the goats to blame me for this. Like you didn't anything wrong, it was ur turn enjoy it cuz we don't know how long is gonna last. I guess being a couple means just u and I, but I see you have a different idea about. I don't need an open relationship, that's stupid for me, we are in, or ,we are out of the relationship. Is that simple.
This is getting clear...so it doesn't hurt like I'd thought. I don't even reply ur email is nothing left, so tell me what's the point to start from scratch like you said, if we love each other but we can't be together, is not ZERO in this... so let this die with the nite. Is already dead.
Goodbye P.
Staying here for you
not held been I was crying
something asking not to do
thru my whole life
What did I ever listen
to your promises
When nothing changing
you and all the lies you said
These I leave all uses
nothing but the same
face the truth
you can't control my faith
No more lies
is painful to me
but I'm free at last
No more lies
no fear, no silence
now part of the past
Seems like that all your words
fear, has come crushing down
is seeking me to see
how little you are now
I'd never find myself
standing again right here
where I couldn't breath
before goes now I have no fear
Uh you take the pain
you'd gave when I was there
I doubt you have the strange to spare
Never again
will I be there like I was there for you before
now nothing is the same
cuz gone is the pain
not care with the blame
cuz gone is the pain
No More Lies By Fey
Yes, hardly to admit, well not that hard, heehaw. I have a new profile in the sex website, nothing really change these last 4 weeks, same people thinking they're the last coke in the desert. I'm hunting my next victim, still don't believe in love, don't need that is just waste of time, energy, money, feelings so forget it.
I was online for a while but I've got bored after an hour or two, nothing really interesting. Guessing I'm healing now...after Saturday drama, realized that is no reason to stop breathing for you. I love you, but should be crazy to back with you, nothing is gonna change. Last nite you saw me "haunting" then U send me an email, u contradict yourself, u want me but u don't want to spend time with me, U are tired to people talking to you but U still getting online!!! you love me but you want ur freedom, U already have it, what else do you want from me? I'm not that stupid to understand ur game so, I'd set you free... doesn't really matter. I don't want you in a cage, that's how you felt all this time, is so sad, u have the goats to blame me for this. Like you didn't anything wrong, it was ur turn enjoy it cuz we don't know how long is gonna last. I guess being a couple means just u and I, but I see you have a different idea about. I don't need an open relationship, that's stupid for me, we are in, or ,we are out of the relationship. Is that simple.
This is getting clear...so it doesn't hurt like I'd thought. I don't even reply ur email is nothing left, so tell me what's the point to start from scratch like you said, if we love each other but we can't be together, is not ZERO in this... so let this die with the nite. Is already dead.
Goodbye P.
Staying here for you
not held been I was crying
something asking not to do
thru my whole life
What did I ever listen
to your promises
When nothing changing
you and all the lies you said
These I leave all uses
nothing but the same
face the truth
you can't control my faith
No more lies
is painful to me
but I'm free at last
No more lies
no fear, no silence
now part of the past
Seems like that all your words
fear, has come crushing down
is seeking me to see
how little you are now
I'd never find myself
standing again right here
where I couldn't breath
before goes now I have no fear
Uh you take the pain
you'd gave when I was there
I doubt you have the strange to spare
Never again
will I be there like I was there for you before
now nothing is the same
cuz gone is the pain
not care with the blame
cuz gone is the pain
No More Lies By Fey
9.2.10
ThE kEy
I'm done waiting for you
breaking the chains
that used to tide my hands
now and then
my feelings still there
but I'm walking away
is no need to stop
breathing for you
Seeing you
was the key to unlock the door
your voice disappears
from my soul
I don't need you anymore
even want you anymore
You've got your freedom
have a lot of fun
fool someone else
with your fake monogamy
maybe they will
buy your tears
I was so afraid
to my fears
constant shame
to express myself
You've got me for a while
like borrow time
U said I need time to heal
wait for me
Why should I?
My love is big
but is bigger for myself
I'd never wanted to
share your bed
be free
just stay away from me
How can you send me a love song?
If you are looking for
take it back
I don't want it
I will find my peace
someday and somehow
but so far
I'm done waiting for you
the chains are broken
and my love too
I'm done waiting for you
This is my way to say goodbye to P, this what I'm feeling so is better end this agony taking you out off my life. Actually I didn't care u were in the same website, just some anger came to my mind bur after that I'm done with you.
I'm done waiting for you
breaking the chains
that used to tide my hands
now and then
my feelings still there
but I'm walking away
is no need to stop
breathing for you
Seeing you
was the key to unlock the door
your voice disappears
from my soul
I don't need you anymore
even want you anymore
You've got your freedom
have a lot of fun
fool someone else
with your fake monogamy
maybe they will
buy your tears
I was so afraid
to my fears
constant shame
to express myself
You've got me for a while
like borrow time
U said I need time to heal
wait for me
Why should I?
My love is big
but is bigger for myself
I'd never wanted to
share your bed
be free
just stay away from me
How can you send me a love song?
If you are looking for
take it back
I don't want it
I will find my peace
someday and somehow
but so far
I'm done waiting for you
the chains are broken
and my love too
I'm done waiting for you
This is my way to say goodbye to P, this what I'm feeling so is better end this agony taking you out off my life. Actually I didn't care u were in the same website, just some anger came to my mind bur after that I'm done with you.
8.2.10
7.2.10
AfteR 3 wEeKs
After 3 weeks I'd found you in the club, u were wearing that horrible boots, that hideous tee too. Ur hair is darker.
I wasn't sure to going out but I'd decided to take the risk, leaving the "bitter" that became in my house, so was around 1:15 am when I saw you walking downstairs, my heart start to beat faster, you got lost in the crowd... u disappear...Minutes passed thru my life and one more time u are there steering @ me, my eyes were in yours but this fairy tale is over. My first reaction was run to you, hold you, kiss you... then sadness, then anger, then two thousand feelings were spinning around inside my heart and my mind. Can control them, doing my best but on the dance floor I was looking for you.... u aren't there... my hopes are leaving my soul. Dancing, pretending that I didn't see you. The moment to left the club got to me. Picking up my blue jacket having the desire to run away from you...surprise, surprise u were outside talking to some "strangers" (I want it to think that) passing right next to you, I'd hear you saying something about me, after that second I'd start to walk faster 'till I'm running. I was so angry with myself, angry with you... playing these four walls, kinda stooping on front of you, but like I knew it you don't even looked at me, just wanted to fly with my car, going away. I'm so desperate know, I'm sweating now, moving slow. Driving so fast(something inside my head told me "you have to calm down this is no you")the stoplight is there. Taking my phone dialing Maria's number, bc I needed someone to calm down this madness, luckily she did helped me out.. saying all my feelings and making the mistake to send you a email saying:
Can you tell me my heart it needs stop loving you.... or just take my feelings away... When I saw you just wanted to hold you and kiss you, I know is stupid keeping like this but dunno what to do. I know u don't gonna answer this but at least i say this to the rite person.
I'm feeling like shit now, the pills are hitting me, so I will try to get some rest, hoping when I wake up my day gets better and less painful.
Entre el cielo y suelo hay algo
con tendencia a quedarse calvo
de tanto recordar
y ese algo que soy yo mismo
es un cuadro de bifrontismo que
solo da una faz
la cara vista es un anuncio de Signal
la cara oculta es la resulta
de mi idea genial de echarte
me cuesta tanto olvidarte
me cuesta tanto olvidarte
me cuesta tanto
olvidar quince mil encantos
es mucha sensatez
y no se si sere sensato
lo que se es que me cuesta un rato
hacer cosas sin querer
y aunque fui yo quien decidio que ya no mas
y no me canse de jurarte que no habra
segunda parte
me cuesta tanto olvidarte
me cuesta tanto olvidarte
me cuesta tanto
Me cuesta tanto Olvidarte by Fey
After 3 weeks I'd found you in the club, u were wearing that horrible boots, that hideous tee too. Ur hair is darker.
I wasn't sure to going out but I'd decided to take the risk, leaving the "bitter" that became in my house, so was around 1:15 am when I saw you walking downstairs, my heart start to beat faster, you got lost in the crowd... u disappear...Minutes passed thru my life and one more time u are there steering @ me, my eyes were in yours but this fairy tale is over. My first reaction was run to you, hold you, kiss you... then sadness, then anger, then two thousand feelings were spinning around inside my heart and my mind. Can control them, doing my best but on the dance floor I was looking for you.... u aren't there... my hopes are leaving my soul. Dancing, pretending that I didn't see you. The moment to left the club got to me. Picking up my blue jacket having the desire to run away from you...surprise, surprise u were outside talking to some "strangers" (I want it to think that) passing right next to you, I'd hear you saying something about me, after that second I'd start to walk faster 'till I'm running. I was so angry with myself, angry with you... playing these four walls, kinda stooping on front of you, but like I knew it you don't even looked at me, just wanted to fly with my car, going away. I'm so desperate know, I'm sweating now, moving slow. Driving so fast(something inside my head told me "you have to calm down this is no you")the stoplight is there. Taking my phone dialing Maria's number, bc I needed someone to calm down this madness, luckily she did helped me out.. saying all my feelings and making the mistake to send you a email saying:
Can you tell me my heart it needs stop loving you.... or just take my feelings away... When I saw you just wanted to hold you and kiss you, I know is stupid keeping like this but dunno what to do. I know u don't gonna answer this but at least i say this to the rite person.
I'm feeling like shit now, the pills are hitting me, so I will try to get some rest, hoping when I wake up my day gets better and less painful.
Entre el cielo y suelo hay algo
con tendencia a quedarse calvo
de tanto recordar
y ese algo que soy yo mismo
es un cuadro de bifrontismo que
solo da una faz
la cara vista es un anuncio de Signal
la cara oculta es la resulta
de mi idea genial de echarte
me cuesta tanto olvidarte
me cuesta tanto olvidarte
me cuesta tanto
olvidar quince mil encantos
es mucha sensatez
y no se si sere sensato
lo que se es que me cuesta un rato
hacer cosas sin querer
y aunque fui yo quien decidio que ya no mas
y no me canse de jurarte que no habra
segunda parte
me cuesta tanto olvidarte
me cuesta tanto olvidarte
me cuesta tanto
Me cuesta tanto Olvidarte by Fey
6.2.10
bItTeR EnD
How I'd ended like this,I'm becoming so "bitter", can find the meaning of adventure anymore, maybe is for my emotional stats. I used to take the risk to go in adventures (can be club, trips) but not anymore, like yesterday kinda wanted to go out, I was excited about it. Suddenly everything went down!!! Rigo says "he is getting older", I say "I'm getting bitter" so two opinion taking us to the same direction; where's the adventured @? We don't know.
Analyzing myself, realizing the position am I now is far away from yesterday, bc I'm not who I used to be. I'm writing more and expressing myself more lately, maybe is the only way that I will redeem myself for everything I've done and P did to me. There's so many feeling that I'm trying to get back, the illusion of tomorrow, the sparkle when something is magical, how to burst my bubble but keeping the strange world the one that I belong mixed with the real world. No matter how hard the stars are trying to shine on me, is not time for me, like I said before I'm in "stand by mode". Most of my time I'd spend is alone in my room, just the computer, Charmed and Bayonetta keeping company.
What can I do? How long this gonna last? I'll be able to take another path? I'm blind in my future? Is something left for me?
Wow so many question... answer that gonna take me a while to figured 'em out.
I feel like I'm
A million miles away
From myself
More and more these days
I've been down
So many open roads
But they never lead me home
And now i just don't know
Who i really am
How it's gonna be
Is there something that I can't see
I wanna understand
Maybe I will never be
Who I was before
Maybe I don't know me anymore
Maybe who I am today
Ain't so far from yesterday
Can I find a way to be
Every part of me
So I'll try
Try to sort things out
And find myself
Get my feet back on the ground
It'll take time
But I know I'll be alright
Cuz nothing much has changed
On the inside
It's hard to figure out
How it's gonna be
Cuz I don't really know now
I wanna understand
Chorus
I don't wanna wait too long
To find out where I'm meant to belong
I've always wanted to be where I am today
But I never thought I'd feel this way
Every part of me by Miley Cyrus
How I'd ended like this,I'm becoming so "bitter", can find the meaning of adventure anymore, maybe is for my emotional stats. I used to take the risk to go in adventures (can be club, trips) but not anymore, like yesterday kinda wanted to go out, I was excited about it. Suddenly everything went down!!! Rigo says "he is getting older", I say "I'm getting bitter" so two opinion taking us to the same direction; where's the adventured @? We don't know.
Analyzing myself, realizing the position am I now is far away from yesterday, bc I'm not who I used to be. I'm writing more and expressing myself more lately, maybe is the only way that I will redeem myself for everything I've done and P did to me. There's so many feeling that I'm trying to get back, the illusion of tomorrow, the sparkle when something is magical, how to burst my bubble but keeping the strange world the one that I belong mixed with the real world. No matter how hard the stars are trying to shine on me, is not time for me, like I said before I'm in "stand by mode". Most of my time I'd spend is alone in my room, just the computer, Charmed and Bayonetta keeping company.
What can I do? How long this gonna last? I'll be able to take another path? I'm blind in my future? Is something left for me?
Wow so many question... answer that gonna take me a while to figured 'em out.
I feel like I'm
A million miles away
From myself
More and more these days
I've been down
So many open roads
But they never lead me home
And now i just don't know
Who i really am
How it's gonna be
Is there something that I can't see
I wanna understand
Maybe I will never be
Who I was before
Maybe I don't know me anymore
Maybe who I am today
Ain't so far from yesterday
Can I find a way to be
Every part of me
So I'll try
Try to sort things out
And find myself
Get my feet back on the ground
It'll take time
But I know I'll be alright
Cuz nothing much has changed
On the inside
It's hard to figure out
How it's gonna be
Cuz I don't really know now
I wanna understand
Chorus
I don't wanna wait too long
To find out where I'm meant to belong
I've always wanted to be where I am today
But I never thought I'd feel this way
Every part of me by Miley Cyrus
4.2.10
UnDeniaBle
Even the time, even my head are telling me to forget you. But I can't u were all day long in my mind. In the morning i was listening These Four Walls, then Touch... i miss you...I wish can use my magic and turn back time.... it has been almost 3 weeks without you. Sometimes I dunno how!!!!
Even the time, even my head are telling me to forget you. But I can't u were all day long in my mind. In the morning i was listening These Four Walls, then Touch... i miss you...I wish can use my magic and turn back time.... it has been almost 3 weeks without you. Sometimes I dunno how!!!!
2.2.10
AftEr alL
I was talking to my sister about her relationship, after 10 years dating the same guy she just find out there's nothing left to save, everything has been discover about each other, they had a conversation this Saturday about their future, this mean living together.
Last week we'd talked about this, so I told her to think about it before take the decision, is hard to see the reality, but what u see is what u get. If is nothing that can be resolve when u still dating(relationship) is never gonna change, it become worse if you will seeing each other 24/7, so many things that can't stand about the way each other are, being under the same roof can ended in a disaster.
So after a lot of thinking, she said everything, he wasn't what she wanted and her wasn't what he needs. He was crying, well love hurts, She wanted to know if somebody else is in his mind or heart, he denied... but now the coin is in the air. He blame her, saying she was lying to him for long time pretending everything was fine but the truth she confessed was: I wasn't lying to you it was to avoid discussions also u never wanted to hear the truth you told me so many times "u are seeing things they aren't there", so we crossed the line from arguing to ignoring each other. So tell me what's the point to keep appearances? we aren't merried so I dont see point.
Then he asked what u need? is important to me to know and see if I can do it. So she answer his question: Can you stop the pain that I'm feeling now? can you change pain for joy? that's what I want and what I need.
Asking for one more chance to try, but is really worth it?, she is having so many doubts, but a month has given to see if the relationship can be rescued.
Not expectations about the next month, she knows and feels nothing is gonna chance, what can be different?, she recall the time when he found one of his co-workers a women to be exactly, he was so happy to see her again, this was the only time my sister made a big deal, why? bc for long time he didn't seem so excited to see my her, the emotion... so is a disappointment.
My personal opinion is whatever is broken sometimes has to stay broken, no matter how big is the love, people never change, just can pretend that everything is fine. Love sux. But who know maybe this movie will have a happy ending.
Tu y yo no estabamos tan mal
Teníamos algo real
Pero de pronto todo nos cambió
Solo sucedió
Yo pensé que esto iba a llegar
mucho más allá
Y desapareció, se fué sin avisar
Lo que hubo entre tu y yo
No quiere regresar
Y desapareció, ya no lo he visto más
Es tan extraño, que todo se quedó
Pero el amor no está
Y és que nadie puede adivinar
lo que quiere el corazón
Y mucho menos puede controlar
por evitar que pierda la ilusión
Yo pensé que esto iba a llegar
mucho más allá
Desaparecio by Rbd
I was talking to my sister about her relationship, after 10 years dating the same guy she just find out there's nothing left to save, everything has been discover about each other, they had a conversation this Saturday about their future, this mean living together.
Last week we'd talked about this, so I told her to think about it before take the decision, is hard to see the reality, but what u see is what u get. If is nothing that can be resolve when u still dating(relationship) is never gonna change, it become worse if you will seeing each other 24/7, so many things that can't stand about the way each other are, being under the same roof can ended in a disaster.
So after a lot of thinking, she said everything, he wasn't what she wanted and her wasn't what he needs. He was crying, well love hurts, She wanted to know if somebody else is in his mind or heart, he denied... but now the coin is in the air. He blame her, saying she was lying to him for long time pretending everything was fine but the truth she confessed was: I wasn't lying to you it was to avoid discussions also u never wanted to hear the truth you told me so many times "u are seeing things they aren't there", so we crossed the line from arguing to ignoring each other. So tell me what's the point to keep appearances? we aren't merried so I dont see point.
Then he asked what u need? is important to me to know and see if I can do it. So she answer his question: Can you stop the pain that I'm feeling now? can you change pain for joy? that's what I want and what I need.
Asking for one more chance to try, but is really worth it?, she is having so many doubts, but a month has given to see if the relationship can be rescued.
Not expectations about the next month, she knows and feels nothing is gonna chance, what can be different?, she recall the time when he found one of his co-workers a women to be exactly, he was so happy to see her again, this was the only time my sister made a big deal, why? bc for long time he didn't seem so excited to see my her, the emotion... so is a disappointment.
My personal opinion is whatever is broken sometimes has to stay broken, no matter how big is the love, people never change, just can pretend that everything is fine. Love sux. But who know maybe this movie will have a happy ending.
Tu y yo no estabamos tan mal
Teníamos algo real
Pero de pronto todo nos cambió
Solo sucedió
Yo pensé que esto iba a llegar
mucho más allá
Y desapareció, se fué sin avisar
Lo que hubo entre tu y yo
No quiere regresar
Y desapareció, ya no lo he visto más
Es tan extraño, que todo se quedó
Pero el amor no está
Y és que nadie puede adivinar
lo que quiere el corazón
Y mucho menos puede controlar
por evitar que pierda la ilusión
Yo pensé que esto iba a llegar
mucho más allá
Desaparecio by Rbd
1.2.10
wHat is TruE? whaT is Lie?
There's the mystery about my life, my reality is so xtream that some fantasy make it more easy to swallow for the others, but who can say what is true and what is lie, if we perceive the life in so many different ways, because we are different from each others. So u decide on what u believe...
Is like my love for P, some days is here and some days is not, like today, u were just for bit in my mind...
Alicia expulsada al pais de las maravillas
para Alicia hoy es siempre todavia..
Alicia dice que te quiere, cuando ya te ha abandonado..
Alicia by Enrique Bunbury
There's the mystery about my life, my reality is so xtream that some fantasy make it more easy to swallow for the others, but who can say what is true and what is lie, if we perceive the life in so many different ways, because we are different from each others. So u decide on what u believe...
Is like my love for P, some days is here and some days is not, like today, u were just for bit in my mind...
Alicia expulsada al pais de las maravillas
para Alicia hoy es siempre todavia..
Alicia dice que te quiere, cuando ya te ha abandonado..
Alicia by Enrique Bunbury
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