DeEp SkY

Blue as the moon
is the air around
I been thru a labirynth
a faun was my north star
I was scare
to never see the lite
on this deep sky

I was diving
into the walls
trying to find my thoughs
they became alive
a fantasy in my life

I've been walking
in circles
I found a circus
full of clowns
they seem's like a lie's
maybe they were my though's
but they dont

I was reaching
the dreams
but I heard a voice
repeating the nightmares
I been thru a labirynth
full of magic and madness
A field full of weird creatures

As the world is apart
off this deep sky
my stepfoots on the ground
the faun is behind
with my thoughs in a cloud
and my feelings around
in bubbles

As deep is the sky
the sky is deep
deep sky
to find the way to get out
and leave behind my fears
on the labirynth

Im blue as deep sky
I was diving on the eternal night
finally I found the way to get out
goodbye faun
its time for me to depart
just I wanna be free
on the deep sky

JusT I donT knoW hoW?

I dont know whats going on
I cant feel the breathe on my heart
Im disconected of my body
my soul is with you
but my mind is on the space
a open one, without you...

I dont know how,
just I dont know how
this happend to us?
where I lost myself on you
I cant be without you
but I cant be with you
just I dont know how?

You are like a dream come true
U're so real, real as the air
you'd changed my world
and filled me up
maybe Im broken like a sunset
I try to believe and make me strong enough
too much to ask?

I dont know how let you in
just I dont know how?
I dont know how open my heart forever
just for you
just I dont know how?

Try, so hard
breath, so hard
believe, so hard

Just I dont know how (let you in)
show me how
just I dont know how.

LiKe LoVErS dO....

Finally I found that paradise that I've been waiting, a better life to bring us round, and now i see the world like lovers do...
We're taking easy, taking slow, we're catching fire and let it go, I'm waiting to give myself to you, on that way we can live like lovers do...
Like lovers do, I'm feeling that way...

When I don't even expect someone on my life him suddenly showed up, he makes me feel again on heaven, waking up again all that romance it was sleeping on me, no words to describe what kind of feelings are on me... Now everything is blue in my life like never before....... its all because of you.

EveRyThINg ChaNgeD

This lolyness
What I'm feeling
doesn't relieve it
doesn't disappear it
If I lie you
About everything going well
cant going worse
the truth is that I'm nourished from my fears
I've felt able to play your game
but I've discovered
that I lost myself if at trying
Perhaps I've found things about me
what's make me suffer
and fight against my ego
And I cant moving on
If you don't be with me

(Chorus)
Everything changed
And now cant find
the way to back
Everything changed
how come back to you?
How come back to myself?
Where I've losted myself?
And everything has changed

I don't want to give the back to you
I don't want to hurt you
But I know that I'll falling into the trap
I'll betray you
You'll leave me
I didn't want to someone else take my place

I've felt able to play your game
But I've discovered that I lost myself at trying
I don't want to see me cry
On the bottom knows I cant no more
I don't even know how I can carry on
If you don't be with me

(Chorus)

Inside I'm cowardly
outside I'm different
inside just instic
outside you can count with me
inside it doesn't is the same
outside I don't fail you
inside I keeping for myself
outside I don't know
If I stay there

Inside I'm cowardly
outside I'm different
inside just instic
outside you can count with me
inside it doesn't is the same
outside I'm different
inside just instic
outside I don't know if I'll carry on

iS iT lOVe...

Iio

I never knew a love

A love that could be sweeter

No matter what my mind says

Your music gives me fever

The moment that we danced

Your arms felt like a cradle

And when you took my hand

I was no longer able

It never felt so right before

I need to be with you much more

I can't believe this kind of fate

We can runaway... Is it love?

I'm always in a spell

Even when I'm sleeping

You're always on my mind

I hope that I'm not dreaming

If I am let me stay asleep

Don't wake me up

I feel complete I never want to feel it end

What a lovely moment

Is it love?

I wanna give you my love

All the time

I wanna make love to you

All the time

I wanna be right next to you

All the time

I wanna be in love with you

All the time

SoundTraCk of My Lif3

Main theme: If I fall by Tara Mclean
When I wake up: The other Side by Fey
Driving : Come closer by Tarkan
Before sleep : Era la Musica by RBD
When Im happy: Y aqui estoy by Fey
Sad day : Yo te voy amar by NSYNC
Nite club: Love is a crime by Anastacia
Driving to the niteclub: Since you been gone by Kelly Clarkson
When Im tripping: Dulce locura by La oreja de Van gogh
Broken heart: Open arms by Journey
Gay song: Todos me miran by Gloria Trevi
________________________________________
Friends(kbaretito): Alive by J-Lo
Gab: Yo te voy amar by Nsync
Potter: Dont speak by No Doubt
Amy: Jenny from the block by J-lo
Megan: Gennie in a bottle by Xtina Aguilera
Sand: Miedo by Pepe aguilar
Jay: I will come to you by Hanson
Yara: Lucha de Gigantes by Nacha Pop
Rob: Sexy Back by Justin
Diana: Mis ojos lloran por ti by BigBoy
Gerardo: Hollaback girl by Gwen Stefany
________________________________________
Sweet madness: Before the Dawn by Evanescense
Memories: Kiss me by Sixpence none the richer
When Im sexy: Breathe on Me by Brittney
Looking for: Someone to call my love by Janet Jackson
Magic Moment: Never saw blue like that by Shaw Colvin
Rebirth: Vertigo by Fey

FrEedOm wRiTerS

Today I learned something new about the Mexican-American life, besides I understood how the life can make you Stronger-faster, waking up on yourself the spirit to be free and the brave to change the life.

It doesn't matter what is your color, race, life style; its about who you are?; who you want to be? Its not about the destiny either about where you come from? Its about where you belongs, fight againts destiny you can write your own.

I learned by my own experience, how the life it has be changed and how is works if you want to, how the racist can destroyed everything that you've been building. I belive in myself when nobody else does, I fightt againts my demons, I screamed out when nobody wanted heard me, I been thru a darkness. Since that moment I been living my life im a better person far away of everything it has been hurted me for long time, who knows me better than I? .

The cover can be fake, that smile, that attitude its real? who knows if you are suffering? Why the people thinks that they have the right to judge other people? why everything has to be about prejudgement. For this questions we having the answers, I waiting for that day coming up.

My better way to xpress myself its writing and putting on a piece of paper what's on my mind... a movie what changed my mind and opened my eyes to see beyond where my eyes seen it, a great nite...

EscRitoRes LibREs

Hoy aprendi algo acerca de la vida Mexico-americana , ademas entendi como la vida te hace mas fuerte-rapido, despertando en ti mismo el espiritu de ser libre y el valor de cambiar la vida.

No importa cual es tu color, tu raza, estilo de vida; es acerca de kien eres? kien kieres ser?, no es acerca del destino, tampoco lo es de donde vienes? es acerca de donde perteneces, pelea contra el destino puedes escribir el tuyo.

sO ManY, bUt noT 4 m3

How many people can be on the chat room at the same time? 100's or thousands, who know's? But however I can find some for me, its stupid I know pretend to find the love of my life online. ja!

I making a flashback to see how many guys I've met online... Well I don't even remember theirs names sux, 4 real; I learned the only thing that they looking for? Is SEX. Where is the dates, movies something special and romantic to do who knows about that shit, nobody gives a damn for.

So many guys interacting, sharing sex, hot body's, people pretending be someone else. With naked pictures, selling themselves.

Another point of view is I can not say that everyone online belongs to that kind of people it does have a exeptions, I dont know what they expecting for? or what if I have a shoot?, maybe one of this days my opinion changes about the chat rooms.

On my own pretending he's beside me

All alone I walk with him 'till morning

without him I feel his arms around me

and when I lose my way I close my eyes

and he's found me

BeTing My wIngs

When i was trying to get something real the planets just they dont let me be happy, why?... or maybe isnt the right one. I wrote this song , I was thinking about, but everything has left on nothing...

I'll bet my wings

Once upon a time
when everything was flat
it was before i met you
now my life turn's on blue
everytime, that you're in my mind
something running thru my veins
that I dont know what it is

What can I do to get you?
can you help me? let me try.

Let me show you
let me fly with your hands in my hands
I dont wanna miss the chance
I dont wanna lose the light
let me try
let me try
I want to see the blue in your eyes
I will bet my wings
four you now.

I guess all that we needing
it's a bare soul's
and wide open sky
and my dreams are growing up
together with my heartbeat
you're the reason and my shooting star

What can I do to get you?
can you help me? let me try

Let me show you
let me find out
on the blue in your heart
let's dont run away this time
I will bet my wings
for your hands
let me try, let me try
I will bet my wings
for you now
let me try
I will bet my wings
to be in your life.

TiMe tO Say

The loneliness its so long, the moon it doesn't shining toned. The tempting waits holding breathe, flash back to old memories, no one's.

All spin around
becoming smallest at least
this time
the sky looks so blue
my wings wide open
ready to fly
Its time to say goodbye
leaving everything behind
its time to see your face
in this endless day

A memories comes from the heart
they never go away
a life, a dream, a wish.

My hands start to feeling
tired without you
why do I have to choice?
my hands are tired to waiting for you
like you always come and go
my hands are tired
without your skin....

But its time to say goodbye
I leaving everything behind
faith is believing the unseen
time to say goodbye
no regrets in this time

My hands missing your lips
I wont be disappear
My hands missing your skin
my wings are tired
but they're ready to fly
time to say goodbye

hAndS

Why do I have to choice between my freedom or my love?, why do i have to change my dreams for plans? why you try to make me fool, so give me a reason... dont blame me to be different, is the way Im... i can not do nothing... my hand's are tired to waiting for you... you always come and go... my hands are tired without your skin... my hands missing your lips... but my hand they are mines not yours

"Hands"
If I could tell the world just one thing
It would be that we're all OK
And not to worry 'cause worry is wasteful
And useless in times like these
I won't be made useless
I won't be idle with despair
I will gather myself around my faith
For light does the darkness most fear
My hands are small, I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
And I am never brokenPoverty stole your golden shoes
It didn't steal your laughter
And heartache came to visit me
But I knew it wasn't ever after
We'll fight, not out of spite
For someone must stand up for what's right
'Cause where there's a man who has no voice
There ours shall go singing
My hands are small I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my ownI am never broken
In the end only kindness mattersIn the end only kindness matters
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray
My hands are small I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my ownAnd I am never broken
My hands are small I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
And I am never broken
We are never broken
We are God's eyes
God's handsGod's mind
We are God's eyes
God's hands
God's heart
We are God's eyes
God's hands
God's eyes
We are God's hands
We are God's hands

XmAs

Gay NAvidad pase esta temporada en una fiesta un poco desenfrenada, me senti al principio incomodo; demasaido diria yo pero poco a poco empeze a socializar, charlando y con unos tragos todo se ve mejor, asi k empeze a charklar con un chico muy lindo totalmente mi tipo(alto, delgado, ojos azules, vello en pecho y look despreocupado) su nombre Morgan, me arme de valor presentandome a mi mismo. Charlamos de Mexico, su politica, gente cosas asi, pero todo lo k empieza bien mal termina: la noche se termino habia demasiado alcohol en nuestra sangre para poder pensar, es mas no estoy seguro de si le guste!?.

Como sea di un paso importante, poco a poco se iran dando otras situaciones.

Prepare pasta con salsa de hongos y echallote, flan napolitano... me kedo de rechupete jajaja....

Llego gente k no me agrada pero al final de cuentas fue una buena, diferente, comica, nmagica, musical NAVIDAD con mi familia....

No la pase con mis tios por k estan en Florida(deberia de estar yo ahi pero no hubo oportunidad para ir tal vez en mis vacaciones).

Me regrese a casa por k no tenia animos de estar en casa de Roberto, no se me he vuelto demasiado hogareno k ya xtrano mi cama si duermo en otra.

Lunes de navidad con mil sueno, dolor de cabeza pero aun tengo un poco de bateria e ire al recalentado....

Bailando se encienden los sentidos toda la noche....

No RoMeO

No existe un romeo para morir, no hay un principe azul atrapado en un castillo k kiera ser rescatado, me dio la inspiracion para escribir esta song...

nO RomEo

Touching

the taste of love

too bitter

too sweet(bitter-sweet)

that I cant swallowed

but Im refused

Bitter-sweet feeling

that just wont let go

It's like a poison

without antidote

more than I can drink

more than I can think

(Dont even exist a romeo to die for,

fairy tale with a broken heart)

No romeo

(to die for)

Jiliette ran away

cause she knows

all the things

that comes with

There is the fact

to be in love

to be in love

Floating far awar

from him

im shaking

in this endless dream

touching the bitter and sweet fear

I realize no reason to been waiting for

Dont even exist any pain

scratching my skin

foolish love

doesent make difference

No romeo (to die for)

Romeo you should never went

cuz your love

is a foolish thing

No romeo (to die for)

No romeo (to die for)

juliette ran away

Romeo you're a fairy tale..

MoTiVos y RaZonES

Hay tanto k encierra el simple hecho de un acto k no esperas, k te toma por sorpresa , asi me ocurrio la semana pasada, un tanto el desconcierto, la decepcion de parte de kien pensaste k te apoyaria, pero el final de cuentas es un tonto sueno empirico k de nada sirve.
No pude mas con todo lo k me he guardado durante estos 18 meses mis sentimientos encontrados en cuanto a ese tema se refiere k ya eran demasiados, yo puedo gastar mis palabras con ellos, ps no me llevara a algun lado.
El tratar de ahogar todo no funciono, bueno lo fue por un tiempo pero todo me estaba kemando. Bueno ya mis lagrimas y compartir con mis amigos lo ocurrido me llevo a hacer una catarsis; un nueva razon para dejar el pasado en paz y mirar la vida en diferente perspectiva.
Mis nuevos brios tal vez me permitiran dejar mis tabus , ser mas yo sin restricciones o pretender alguien k no puedo ser, claro me llevara algo de tiempo pero se k algun dia lo tendre; ese dia podre aceptar a alguien mas en mi vida k tenga su propia manera de ver la vida, no tratar de imponer mi angulo, k era asi de extrano k no permitia otra propuesta mas k la mia.
Esto me lleva a tocar el tema de por k estoy soltero, k aveces me siento k lo estoy demasiado!.
Aveces pienso k no necesito alguien mas en mi vida para ser feliz(es cierto hasta algun punto donde no interfiera mi corazon), pero como dice Tarkan: cuz everyone needs a touch, la contraparte es k en ciertos momentos me siento demasiado solo, sin alguien a mi lado, mi habiatacion se vuelve tan enorme… despues de unos minutos todo ese sentimiento se marcha regresando a la realidad. Aveces no lo entiendo pero si hecho mis suenos a volar regresaran, tal vez espero a mi sailor moon k venga a rescatarme de mi Castillo encantado, suena estupido pero dentro de todo lo k soy hay un ¨romantico sonador¨ .

nO....

No a todo ahora, no a la represion, no a la nueva actitud... no a todo, no a Fey y su playback, no a mi sentimiento de poca culpa, no a la guerra, no a las estupidas canciones de amor, no a lo k reprime, no, no, no....

No a la falta sentimientos, no a esas miradas k me dicen: TE DESEO, no a esa estupida espera... simplemente leave alone for a while....

DaWson's CrEek

Cuando tus recuerdos han kedado atras y kieres volver a sentirlos, cuando un poco de nostalgia inunda mi ser me transporto a mis tiempos preparatorianos donde descubri la amistad, el amor, y mi primera vez. Una manera sencilla de estar ahi una vez mas, es no volviendo a la escuela y asi... para mi es ver DAwsons creek... encontre las temporadas en oferta en Best Buy, no lo pense mas comprandolas, disfrutandoles y reviviendo momentos inborrables.

Se k no debo de comparar mi vida con algo televisivo, prescrito, predecible e irreal; pero no puedo dejar a un lado k todo es tan real en mi vida k no hay mas k vivirlo. Todo se vuelve tan real e imaginativo, tan vivo e irreverente. Buenos recuerdos han kedado en DVD la magia de la tecnologia.

Pasando a otro asunto, compre un Bambu k en si son tres, uno es Alex por pkeno e insignificante(Alex mi amigo-examigo-amor), Kike, rigido e irrompible k esta al centro y k sostiene a los demas, y Gyo por mi; tan lleno de matizes, formas y un tanto weird(saben de lo k estoy hablando). Ahora mi habitacion tiene mas vida, me hace sentir mejor, ahora tengo alguien a kien cuidar; estar pendiente de ellos.

Mi habiatacion dio cierto cambio, nuevo diseno de cortinas, nuvo centro de entretenimiento y estrellas en el techo... me gusta la atmosfera k ahora se respira....

Recuerdos van, vienen, permanecen, renacen y se kedan para siempre en mi corazon, mente y alma....

Miro hacia atras y busco entre mis recuerdos

NiTEclUb LovE

What's going on the nite club?...romance?...passion? or just pure fun?... there it go the answer.

NiTEclUb LovE

Im ready

ready and...excited

are you... ready?

I'll be there

and so maybe you

Im dressing to kill

all the rythim to live

I'm driving into the nite

I see the signals to arrive

Im going thru

(the moon is my friend,

the sun is my foe)

I'm almost there

I'm so close

close to find... you

I go faster as I can

finally I'm here

music played on

come and turns me on

I'm walking into the people

I can feel you

your eyes on me

look at me...

The dancefloor is the witness

firts sight, ligths on

my body speak a lenguage

you understand it

come, come

just a little bit closer

lets feel the beat

niteclub love

let's play the game of love

It's a infatuation

with a lot sensations

show me how it looks the music

in your hands

putting on my skin

I can barely breath

ah, ah, ah , ah...

Let's feel the beat

niteclub love

On the dark

I wanna play with fire

(your) hands-skin(mine)

(my) breath-lips(yours)

(yours) eyes-body(mine)

on the dark

you'll be my niteclub love

*Chorus

Let's feel the beat

niteclub love

2 bodies, 1 dance

no secrest

animal atraction

reaction, reaction, reaction..

niteclub love

2 bodies, 1 nite

just sentations, sensations

a revolution comes with

STOP!

I gotta go

tomorrow you will be

my niteclub love

Im Gone

Por k todo tiene k ser igual y tan estupidamente estupido y lleno sin sentido?, por k todas las relaciones son asi?, why?, why?....

Lo mismo en mi rueda karmatika; Z despues de haber pasado un dia increible todo se esfumo, en verdad no me importo ps como k s lo usual en mi vida, pero bueno asi es y asi sera...

Hablando de algo totalmente diferente: odio estar en medio de todo y ahora sin kerer lo estoy, k weba, k nefasto k me agarren de guarda secretos!, la situacion Robert-karlos-gershawn ya esta totalmente fuera de control, me ponen de pretexto para justificar sus tonterias, me anteponen en la unica forma k pueden... me esta desesperando esto... carlos llorikea, roberto se keja y ger se keda mudo... esta todo fuera de control no puedo mas; me stas desesperando.... las idas al antro se han vuelto mentiras y alcohol, duda poca diversion, baile y mucho drama... bueno aunk en ocasiones me divierto con todo esto. El sabado me la pase increible sin preocupaciones, sin nada mas k el placer de bailar; pasar un buen rato y lo consegui.

Apesar de k estaba enfermo de la garganta(y k el domingo lo pague por la noche). El domingo tube un compromiso familiar el bautizo de los hijos de Edith y Judith.. un tanto aburrido pero ya hacia tiempo k no pasaba un buen rato familiar....

Cancion del Momento... La ultima gota....

La luz se apaga en la ciudad y me pregunto en donde estas?

en medio de esta oscuridad cada vez me hundo mas y mas....

ToDO OTrA Vez

tODO una vez mas empieza sin terminar en mi vida, una temporada mas ha iniciado....

Ahora voy al GYM para ejercitarme y ponerme super sexy por k kiero otro tatauje pero hasta k tenga six pack.

Mi look me late totalmente como lo kiero, mi cabello sigue intacto y con un color como violeta. Mi forma de vestir mezclada de todo un poco, sandalias, tennis, jeans, cargo pants, y wow!!! ahora solo utilizo una sola shirt(ya mi look anterior como k kaduko).

En cuanto a amigos, con Giovanni no tengo relacion alguna, traiciono mi confinaza totalmente(ya no gasto mis palabras), Kike se ha vuelto mi nuevo companero de charla, gym y platicas nocturnas. Me cae super mega bien el nino, creo k es reciprocuo. Acerca de Gerardo ps ya no nos vemos tanto como antes pero creo k todo esta bien, Yuri ps X me cambio por su novio, Diana seguimos super bien, Alex( estamos en kien se atreve a dar el primer paso para el primer beso, me late el nino de hecho ya tuvimos nuestra primer cita hace un par de dias; cine y plei en kaza, pero me confunde un poco). Estoy bien en ese plano.

Relaciones: lo mismo de siempre conoci a un chico por una extrana razon y por Josh, bueno tubimos una cita, y termino en casi sexo, lo cual yo no keria, tubimos un second chance pero no funciono me hizo un drama; la neta k weba, termino la historia. Steve no tengo idea de el desde hace casi un mes, no se si permanece en JOrdania o ya volvio, una parte de mi kiere verlo con ansias locas, en verdad me gusta. Cero chat para mi desde hace un buen. Sigue mi karma....

Familia: ps no mucho k hablar he estado demasiado ocupado y creo k ellos tambien.

Enojo... FEY lanzo el disco antes de lo k habia dicho pero bueno tendre k esperar la version para EU con los tracks en ingles. Aunke su nuevo look no me late sigo insistiendo en k luce mejor con el VErtigo... el video para nada es bueno y ahora escucho el disco es un tanto "BOBO" las letras son para chic@s de high school, pero bueno ya era tiempo de algo de FEY... en verdad esperaba mas de ella pero bueno espero k lo siguente sea algo mejor. Me sigue gustando pero nada supera vertigo.

Es lo k acontece en mi vida...

UndER BriDge

Under a bridge I found a missed piece of my life, Diana leaded me into the rythim of the life, a nice trip to find a great place since the moment that I arrived that place everything changed. Another dimension, another athmosphere, just the road, ddy, me and the river under us...

My relationship with her is really deep, with her I cant talk and talk, she care me, I care her; she complein me, our friendship is awesome.

Otherwise she heard me and she makes me feel really good.

I like spent time with... she is my friend.... she showed me her secret place.... under the bridge I forget my troubles, under the bridge my point of view its like a sunday sky....